I would like to post a long update here on my life as of late, but I really don’t have the time (I have to clock in at 9:00.) I also really just don’t feel like retreading over every little detail of what has been going down as of late.
For those of you who do not know, I am dating Olivia again. Yes, I know many of you are going to give me shit about this. However, there comes a point where I just stop caring what people think. Things between her and I could certainly be better but we are both committed to try and work it out. I hope it works but only time will tell with that.
Through turmoil I have always found inspiration. That is definitely the case here as well. Since my mind has been in a massive fog I have been slowly feeling my creative juices flowing again, the Ian that I long forgot about seems to be awakening inside of me again. I have avoided major life drama for years and I think it has been just as long since I have done any sort of creative work. I suppose drama is my muse and I should embrace it instead of burying it. I have not been able to put down my notebook when I am away from home and when I have been home it has been hard to stay away from the computer it feels great and is giving me a renewed sense of hope.
On a minor side note, the selection process has started for the East Lansing Film Festival. This is the first year I am a part of that portion of the Fest. and I am supremely excited to get started on it. I have my first round of movies to review and there will be plenty more. I shall keep everyone posted on Festival news as I find out more about it.
Also, my friends have been great lately. They rock like a cock from hades. I love you guys.
This post ended up longer than I thought. I need to clock in. Peace out Y’all!
Was interesting today…
“Sunday, Oct 5th, 2008 — You might not understand what’s happening because forces are at work that are coming from other worlds. It’s crazy to think that parallel universes are breaking into this dimension with urgent messages for you, but don’t dismiss this idea, even if it’s beyond your current belief. It’s better to entertain all possibilities now, rather than limiting yourself to a specific outcome.”
I finally got my account back current with them. They are amazing. I really missed renting tons of movies all the time.
Also, heroes last night was pretty good. I felt like they did too much in the first two episodes but I am thinking they were probably making up for the short season 2. Having Sylar be Noah’s partner is going to be interesting.
Life has been pretty good lately. Again I am going to state that sometimes I feel like I am in the eye of a storm. All of my friends seem to be going through drama while my life steadily marches on. I guess as long as I move with the storm and don’t let myself get sucked I should be fine until everything cools down. I just wish everyone could be so happy.
Anyway, off to work. Peace out all!
Never to take it too seriously but in general my horoscopes happen to be right. They are terribly wrong sometimes but lately they have been very optimistic. Hurrah.
What a week it has been. Plenty of good times and good feelings.
Today I saw Choke with Kim. I thought a movie about sexual addiction would be right up my alley. It was interesting but it certainly was not all that great. It was a fun day otherwise though, got some new clothes as well. Yay!
I have been hanging out with Olivia a lot lately, much to most of my friends complete disapproval. Maybe I am too nice a person and I should not give the people who hurt me a chance. If I don’t continue to be nice however then I just would not be me and I would feel like shit about myself, which would be unacceptable. Things are going well with her though I think, a few weeks ago she seemed massively confused and lost about life, I think she has her head together now.
Work has been fine lately, things are getting more stressful as time goes on and money gets tight. I don’t let it bother me as much as other people do. I know it is out of my control. Still will suck if I am going to be looking for a new job soon though.
Overall though, i am feeling the good vibrations. Peace out!
Last night Kim, Cameron and myself all hung out together for the first time in a long time. It was pretty cool. Kim and Cameron have been fighting for a while now so it was nice to have the group back together again. We did a short stint of drinking at PB followed by a nice long hookah excursion.
Today is my day off, not sure exactly what the plans are but I have a feeling it is going to be fun as well.
Zombie movie left me in an incredibly good mood that I expect to last all week. Hurrah!
I hate to give him any more attention. Seriously though, I get so many calls everyday updating me on the next crazy thing that Drew has said or done. I understand we both used to be very good friends and I still love the guy no matter how deep he goes.
This does not mean, however, that I want to hear about him every second of the day. I don’t think he deserves that much attention and attention is obviously what he is after. I am guilty myself of playing this game too long and it is tiring.
I have recently become some sort of mortal enemy in Drew’s eyes. I find this fascinating since I can’t remember ever doing anything to harm him. I have always wondered what it would be like to have a mortal enemy, it is actually more comical than I ever could have imagined.
I tried hard to be his friend even though he has fucked me over, meddled in my affairs and tried to push his beliefs on me. The other night however he gave a good friend of mine the choice of never talking to me again, or him. Thankfully most of my friends are of their right mind and the one in question dismissed this cheesy tactic with a laugh.
I will never understand it though, the amount of hate a person can have for almost no reason at all. The most I have ever done to Drew is question him. Somehow that makes me a bad person. Questioning the world around me and those in it has gotten me pretty far in my life though and is not something I can stop doing even if my former best friend DOES in fact have the answer.
Anyway, since I have become a mortal enemy in his eyes. I am now deciding to play the role. I think it will be fun. I guess if the gentle prods I have given him so far have made him this angry giving him a hefty poke might make him blow up, which will be entirely entertaining to watch at this point.
Check back here for more details on this fun filled adventure.
…is interesting sometimes.
More on that later.
Had a TON of fun last night for the second part of our shooting.
I have been trying for months to get some of my friends to be involved in this process with me. Making movies has been a dream of mine for years so I guess I never quite understood why nobody I know ever wants to participate.
Well finally last night Rachel came out with her friends Jen and Jon. I think they all had a pretty good time. We got all zombied up, drank a few beers and acted silly. It was a blasty blast. I got to eat raw eggs. I can’t wait to see that on film.
Anyway, probably going to be a mostly boring day today. Been trying to remove layers of makeup from my body all morning then I am heading downtown.
Peace out yall, and keep keepin’ it real!