The Optimism of Summer

Currently I am going through a lot of my older posts in my blog and editing them to get rid of junk posts, add tags and make the titles more representative of the content of the posts. This of course entails reading things that are long forgotten memories for myself. Long forgotten even from one year ago sadly. I just got through a section of posts about “The Summer of Ian” They are from almost exactly one year ago. It is amazing how things change, and how rapidly they change.

At the begining of June 2009 I was sure my job at Skory Autosound would last. I was making good money, I had established myself nicely in a house in Okemos, and I was starting to save money to get out of debt and acquire the things I needed to go forward with making movies also to get out of debt. I had very recently broken up with Olivia (I am not even going to get into that story any time soon.) I was single and ready to mingle. The whole world was my oyster and I was a mollusk loving freak.
Then.. it all changed. The job I thought would last did not, my relationship with Olivia only grew more complicated and the little money I had saved suddenly had to be spent elsewhere.

A year later I am starting fresh again, with optimism but maybe not the pure blinding optimism as before. Currently I am living in a great apartment with the most fantastic roommate I could ask for. I have a new job, but is honestly a crappy job and I don’t make much money. I do make enough money to pay my rent and bills, only barely. I have been thinking greatly as of late about returning to school. I have decided I would like to aquire a degree in English Literature. I have many reason for that choice and I may post about those later. My life as of late is a struggle, but the optimism comes from me at least being able to see the light. If I can struggle like this for just a few years I may be able to pull myself out of this pile of debt, depression and self-loathing. I can feel it! I feel like I have really changed, matured even.
This may not be The Summer of Ian, I do think it will be a great summer nonetheless.

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